Time flies and I'm already teaching....

Wow. Time really flies, I can't believe it that I'm already student teaching. It seems like just yesterday I was still in High school and here I am teaching High school. I have a really amazing cooperating teacher who is going to make my experience very beneficial to me, he is giving me a lot of needed resources and labs. He is inviting me to go to workshops to help better my teaching, I never expected this much help but am truely grateful for the experiences he is giving me. I am finally all settled in, my family brought all my furniture down and now I feel like I live in a home instead of an empty apartment. It is really weird living with 14 roommates to now living alone. Its kind of a creepy/ scary feeling being alone all the time. I'm not a huge fan of it, but its just for a few more months so I will survive and make the most of it. I'll have to post some pictures of the new place, I've made it my own by decorating it. My siblings were not too happy with that fact because they had to help haul all of my stuff down. But it makes me feel better having it feel like my own instead of blank walls. I believe I will be doing a lot of cooking so maybe I should have some visitors so I don't have to eat it all. I have a new recipe book that I want to try alot of new recipes, so let me know if you want to come visit and I'll make you a new treat. That's all for now.

So my journey has begun down teacher lane. I'm slowly jumping into the teaching but will soon be teaching more of the classes as soon as Mr. Warnick finishes the units he is teaching. I'll post more as soon as I get the internet but for now it's all off my phone.

Random thoughts about my current situation... CHANGE

Have you ever been in a place in your life that you absolutely love and don't want to give it up, but you know you have to in order to move forward in your life. Well I am currently in that situation. I finally felt like I was going in the right direction for me. I had the most amazing roommates that I didn't want to leave and I was starting to develope the most amazing friendships that I will always cherish then everything in my life must change in order for me to take the next step into my future.  I just feel that I have lost everything I had, and its really hard for me. Yeah I know I can always come visit my roommates and friends, but its really not the same. It feels weird to come back since I've moved out, its like going home when you've been gone for so long and everyone you knows is still in the same place doing the same things with their lives and me being the only one to move on. I don't mean that in a bad way towards them its just really hard for me to come back. It's as if I don't belong here anymore. It hurts me to think of it that way. I am so greatful for all the people I have met over the past 4 years at school and will Cherish all the fond memories I have had with them. I just need to toughen up and face the fact that I  will encounter change throughout my life and that it's not always bad Change can also be very good for me too.

"Good teachers are priceless. They inspire you, they entertain you, and you end up learning a ton even when you don't know it." I hope one day someone can say this about me.

The Journey begins... down memory lane

Going back and looking at my life recently I have discovered new things that I never realized before in my life.

Living at home is defiantly not where I can see myself, no offense but its not me. I have changed so much for the better and am such a happier person when I am not at my parents home. Logan has became my home for the last 3.5 years and I am really sad to be leaving it behind. It has been apart of my life and helped shape me into the person I am today. I have met some of the most amazing people that I am truly sad to be leaving behind. They have been such a strength to me in my times of trials and bumps along life's path.

My roommates truly became my family, I could rely on them for anything. Although I did develop motherly attributes while living with most of them, I can not say that it is a bad thing. I will be especially prepared in those areas when I actually become a mother.

I have discovered that I am a better person and am living happier now that I have finally got my life on the right path and started attending the temple, just baptisms for not, but eventually I'll make it all the way. The gospel is such an amazing part of my life and is a major part of my happiness. Feeling the spirit throughout my day to day life and in my home has really helped me through my struggles. I know that when I am struggling I just need to ask in faith and Heavenly Father will be there by my side helping me with each step I take.

I am about to face a new journey in my life, something that everyone around me is questioning if I am capable of handling. Which does not help with self esteem, having people doubting every decision you make is not a comforting feeling just because they choose a different path to travel. I will be moving to Delta next week and will be starting my student teaching, I feel adequate for the most part until I moved home and have been questioned about whether or not I can handle it and if I even know anything to teach the students.

How is a person supposed to feel when they get questioned about their entire college career. Just because it is not a chosen career path that family members would have picked or because teachers aren't rich. Should your career only focus on what amount of money you can bring in, or should it be something you love and enjoy doing. I never understood the people who hated their job, but loved the money so much they would never quit and find something they could actually enjoy.

So my journey in life it about to begin... Lets see where it takes me