Gratitude for past mistakes...

I can either be bitter or better, for the trials and mistakes I've made along the way. A wise friend encouraged me to be grateful for what I have and what I learned along the way then to feel sorry for myself. Did I get married to get divorced no. I got married because I thought I loved him and he loved me, but he was only with me for the financial gain and to get his visa.... if he truly loved me he would have made an effort. I am stubborn, I stayed longer then I should have, I invested time, money and energy to have a negative roommate who was never grateful for anything. He complained constantly and always put me down, what I've learned is I need a partner who supports and uplifts me. I learned that I can do hard things, I learned when life throws road block after road block it doesn't mean keep going but rather maybe to stop and evaluate the path and sometimes we. eed to redirect our lives and choose another road. I've learned that my happiness is a priority going forward, too often we out others first and ourselves last but it's not being selfish but rather being self compassionate and putting our needs first. I keep saying I am ready to move on, I gave him 6 years of my life, and he doesn't deserve anymore of my valuable time or energy because he only thought of himself and used friends and family to better him self rather than allowing people to be in his life to support him and actually be apart of the journey. I am grateful for the friends who stu k by me, who supported me, and lifted me up when yet another trial and disappointment came my way. I know he will get what he deserves as it's out of my hands and hopefully soon he will no longer be my problem, he chose to use me for a green card but if he only knew the love and happiness he could have received if he had actually married for love instead of convenience for himself. I am gratefulI realized his true colors and prioritized myself rather than staying in a loveless marriage. my motto this year is choose happiness and that's what I plan to do. until next time, Megan